i cling onto people too easily. i wish there was a way that it can be tattooed onto my head. unfortunately it would be rather odd to see someone with a rather awkward tattoo on their forehead.
i love the male gender. i am at awe with all the things they can do that women can't. i do however think that there are times when women can over power men. it has been told only women can have multiple orgasms. you can only tell by experience. i have never been with a guy who could acheive the multiple orgasm with their "just-finished-shooting" weiner. i totally just rambled on. sorry....
anyway, i am in awe of men. i find it sexy to know of their masculinity. a male does not need physical strength to be hot. i am talking about natural masculinity. brains, personality, emotions... just plain masculinity.
i am not one who looks for a certain type. i can be with what everyone would call "the ugliest person on earth" and i know that i would be happy. everyone has something beautiful about them. it can be anything. you know you are happy and in love with the person that you could care less what or how they start looking like. older couples become fat but they don't care because they love each other unconditionally.
i wish there was that sort of love for young adults. today, everyone is only going by looks. well, most everyone in the young adult generation.
i asked matt what attracted him to me. he said that just the person that i am attracted me to him. he said i was different. he said as he got to know me more and more he fell in love with it all. the past, the present, he said it was a challenge. he said over all the "strength" that i have reeled him in. i know that some where in there comes my looks.
it just so happens that matt is a great looking guy. i feel like i don't deserve anyone, because when i am gone, so will be the relationship. i don't know, i guess i am just having a bad day.
anyway, as I was saying... if there was a guy that i could for to be the way i would want him to, it would be perfect. i want someone sensitive (matt), curious(matt), unforgettable (matt), and doesn't treat me like i am going to die within the next minute (not matt). i know that people care, but... when i am about to die... i will tell you. really, if i feel like i am alright, then i am doing fine.
i wish i has a younger sibling. they wouldn't be sick or anything. they could bring my father a grand child....
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