today i feel hopeless. i felt sorry for myself for no reason. there isn't anything i should feel sorry about. i got everything that i need. i think it is time for another tattoo. how many tattoos do you ask? i have about 40 now. why so much??? i'm simply addicted to it. and whenever i would feel sad or depressed, i would go get a tattoo. my tattoos tell a story. they really do.
i had a dream about mum last night. another scary one. i couldn't tell who the person she was talking about was. but, who ever they were, is going to die. at least it happened in the dream.... and usually dreams i have about mum are true. scary huh?
im scared to dream anymore.
a couple of days ago i cried so much that it hurt. i don't know why i have been doing it so often. i love it when trent hugs me tight though, i know it all is going to be ok once he gives me that big hug. i love him so much. and it is not lusting or first love type thing. i can live without sex with him for the rest of my life and be ok with it.
anyway, i am going to go watch a movie with trent.
bye!
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