i've done something that i completely regret. i didn't harm myself, or any other people. well, if someone finds out maybe it will harm them. but i don't know if i will hear from them before i die.
i look at dying on the brighter side... no more pain, no more misunderstandings, no more broken heart. i'll see freddie again hopefully. i know i will see my mum.
in my own religion, freddie mercury is god, my mum is an angel... i have no idea about religion. i just know god and angels. i hope i am a ghost. that would be ace! i could haunt a lot of people that i didn't like. maybe i can watch the president poop.
no matter if i am flying somewhere or not, i am still pretty stressed. i am so stressed my hair is falling out. it is scary.
i've become such an airy-fairy. it's become all to pot. i can not pick up anything anymore. i'm such a weakling. it's hard for me to pick up my own backpack. there is only a binder in it.
i decided on monday i will tell all my classes that i have leukemia. i am starting to have to use the wheelchairbecause i am so weak. everyone is going to ask any way. but i will talk in front of the whole classes and tell everyone.
everyone is so understanding in college.
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